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私のページへようこそ ♡ my name is ida, I am 16 years old and I really like bladee. my favourite color is pink. I have moderate / level 2 Autism Spectrum Disorder and Attention Deficit Hyperactivity disorder

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I love my friends! My friends influence me in every aspect of my life; really I am nothing without them. I constantly find myself adopting their traits without realising, whether that be humour or way of doing makeup, I find myself constantly mirroring those around me – mostly, this is good, but there have been times where this is not so good :C but its okay because we all grow and change!

some of my friends are Macy, Reza, Stu, Lulu, Sammy, Oda, Samuel (2), Kjell, Andrew, Riri, Bella, Hania, Lulah, David more more idk lOL HAHA

another major thing I find myself inspired by is my childhood. I am HEAVILY inspired by the 2010s, mostly 2015-2019 but I also love everything before then! I am not too keen on anything post 2020 so I tend to avoid involving things in really anything I do,,,

despite not being very good at it, I talk and write a lot – my grammar is not very good due to the poor education in my area, but I do hope to improve! I love exploring languages and Mandarin Chinese is my second language. I can speak, write and read Simplified Chinese, my friends seem to think my pronounciation is pretty good but who am I to judge. My grammar and writing abilities may not be amazing, but I like to think I am fairly smart for someone who is mentally disabled and dropped out of school at 14 – but "correct" grammar has never been a sign of intelligence anyways.

soon, I'm staring college and I hope to go to University afterwards. I'm taking a general studies course about navigating the world but I wanna do extra-carriculars and maybe join a debate team? idk

im not really good at anything & thats ok! atleast I somewhat try at the things I do -__- thats something...

I'm pretty basic and bland – ofc my beautiful website isn't because this is magical and princess themed HA but my actual style is pretty basic, but I'm okay with that. I don't really wear anything crazy or even have dyed hair as of rn, but maybe once day that will changee. I really do like EGL fashion too but I'm way too broke for that.

I don't really describe myself as "unproblematic", but I'm not really problematic either - I just simply have some takes some people wouldn't really agree with and that's okay, but for the most part I do try to be alert / progressive and not bigoted, however sometimes I say insensitive or badly worded things. Obviously we all make mistakes, so that's obvious, but my insensitivity usually stems from things that really do upset me. IDK, I guess I'm just weird like that.

unfortunately, due to mental issues I have suffered from, I have done some careless and irresponsible things in the past, so I do apologise for my behaviour but I do always want to get better so I try to not let it suffocate me! we can all grow and change.

really, I do try to be kind even if I act in questionable ways at time. But sometimes it's really difficult to be full of love when the world fills you with misery, that's why we should all try to be undersanding of others and wish for them to find peace... But that's easy for me to say as little to nothing really makes me that angry – my brain gets mad at me if I ever try to register things (个_个)

I love to watch things – I'll watch anything. unfortunately I have never really cared to keep track of my movies, shows or even youtube, which is what I watch the most.